Sunday, September 19, 2010

A Thankful Heart....

The Lord has used a chain of events today to speak to me.......and I have a thankful heart!

As I was eating my breakfast this morning, I was checking my email while watching Isabella play on the her play mat. I received an email notifying me that someone had posted on my "Baby Center Forum." This took me by I had remembered starting a new forum about 1 1/2 years ago when I was researching and trying to find out information on my 2 blood clotting disorders. Anyways, I quickly went to the forum to scan over what someone had posted. Well, about 1 1/2 years ago I had messaged back and forth with a few girls who had also been diagnosed with my blood clotting disorders. They were super helpful and very encouraging......the last post was by a girl who had just conceived and was due in May 2010. (3 weeks after Bella) Well, as I skimmed over her latest post today - she was notifying me along with the other girls that she had gone into labor after carrying her baby 9 months and had given birth to a stillborn baby.

As I read this... tears flooded my eyes! This precious baby was due right around the time of Bella - her mamma had the same diagnoses as I did - and treatment - and her baby did not make it! I just had to stop right there as I watched my healthy Bella boo playing and thank the Lord for her precious life! I pray I never take one minute of her little life for granted!
I felt the Lord giving me a sweet reminder of the miracle that He blessed me with.......I went to church overwhelmed with a heart of gratitude.

As Jeremy and I were sitting in church.....we sang this song of worship....

Artist: Chris Rice
Song: Untitled Hymn (Come To Jesus)


Weak and wounded sinner
Lost and left to die
O, raise your head, for love is passing by
Come to Jesus
Come to Jesus
Come to Jesus and live!

Now your burden's lifted
And carried far away
And precious blood has washed away the stain, so
Sing to Jesus
Sing to Jesus
Sing to Jesus and live!

And like a newborn baby
Don't be afraid to crawl
And remember when you walk
Sometimes we
Fall on Jesus
Fall on Jesus
Fall on Jesus and live!

Sometimes the way is lonely
And steep and filled with pain
So if your sky is dark and pours the rain, then
Cry to Jesus
Cry to Jesus
Cry to Jesus and live!

O, and when the love spills over
And music fills the night
And when you can't contain your joy inside, then
Dance for Jesus
Dance for Jesus
Dance for Jesus and live!

And with your final heartbeat
Kiss the world goodbye
Then go in peace, and laugh on Glory's side, and
Fly to Jesus
Fly to Jesus
Fly to Jesus and live!

After singing it, our pastor shared about a little girl (little sister of one of our high school students) who passed away at 3 years old after a difficult life on earth due to various health issues. I began to cry as I reflected on my two babies I lost early on in pregnancy.......but those tears were tears of joy knowing that they are with Jesus today! Tears of joy - as I reflect on beautiful Isabella and her healthy life. As Jeremy had his arm around the high schooler who was teary eyed missing his little sister - I was reminded that this life we live on Earth is only but a quick glimpse in comparison with the life we will share with all those we love in heaven one day!

So, today I'm praising Jesus for my sweet Isabella.....praising Jesus for the hope we have to see those we've lost one day in heaven and thankful for the peace He gives us as we pursue the purpose He has for us on this Earth!

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

oh whit-this song is so powerful & SUCH a tear jerker! we had it on my sister's dvd - she loved dancing on earth and now truly is dancing for Jesus and LIVING....