Saturday, May 15, 2010

First Mother's Day...

Isabella and I had a little craft time together and made Mimi and She-She their Mother's Day gifts! I found this little poem online.....and then we added little footprints!

We drove home early Sunday morning from Panama City, relaxed a bit and then got all dressed up for church! Isabella's doctor doesn't want us taking her to the nursery until her 8 week shots - but he said we could take her to church if we were VERY careful to keep her protected from germs! So, we put Isabella in her carseat/stroller - it made a nice little safe place for her so that all our friends at church could see her - but it protected her from any little germs! =) I held her the entire service and she slept so peacefully in my arms. As I held her and looked at her sweet face, I reflected on the past two years and the journey the Lord took us down to bring us to this special day. I remembered last Mother's Day and how I couldn't even go to church because it was just too difficult to be there and see all the mammas and babies celebrating. I remember praying so hard last year that the Lord would bless us with a healthy baby. I remember the peace He continued to give me as I trusted Him with all my heart - but that peace didn't take away the pain I had experienced from our two miscarriages and the longing to be a mamma. I remember entering the busy summer as I packed up my classroom knowing that I would be taking a year's leave of absence and unsure of what the year would hold for us.....but trusting the Lord's plan. I remember stepping into a summer packed full of youth events....camps, mission trips and the list goes on. I had an indescribable peace that the Lord knew the deisres of my heart to be a mamma and I knew that I was right where He wanted me.....
As I sat in church and reflected on our full summer and how the Lord blessed our student ministry through out the summer. I remembered how the day we returned from our mission trip - I found out I was pregnant with little Isabella. God's timing was so perfect. As I looked at Isabella's perfect little sleeping face, listening to the songs of worship in church - the Lord just reminded me that His timing is so perfect. He doesn't promise us that life will be easy or without pain, but He does promise that He will never leave us. He truly walked beside me the past two years and carried me through the most difficult days.
Our pastor closed our Mother's Day service by offering a prayer time for the ladies who desire to have children but have had difficulty thus far. As I saw various ladies from our church go down for prayer........and then as I looked down at the sweet little face of Isabella....tears welled up in my eyes. I was overwhelmed with God's little miracle He gave me......the perfection of her face and the beauty of this precious creation........and that God gave me the privilege to raise her. This is truly a Mother's Day I will never forget! I praise Him this Mother's Day for His faithfulness, goodness, sovereignty and unconditional love.

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