We finally decided on the fabric we want to use for her bedding and room! I love it and I think it will be just perfect. =) My neighbor is going to be sewing all her bedding...which is such a blessing! Her crib and changing table/dresser came in this past week too! So, now her room consists of 2 pieces of furniture and a few cute baby girl outfits along with a few gifts that friends and family have bought for us already. We plan to get started on painting her room a pale pink when we return from our long Christmas vacation! Jer's gonna paint the room and then Mamma Lloyd is going to join him in painting a really pretty silhouette of a tree and little girl swinging from it in a lighter shade of pink or maybe white! They are both so creative and artsy....I'm sure it will turn out adorable!
So, I thought I'd post pics of the furniture and the fabrics for the room! I can't wait to start seeing everything come together once the new year gets here.......
her little sleigh crib...
all the fabrics together...
fabric for the bumper & blanket front...
fabric for the skirt...
fabric for the blanket...
yellow fabric for background of monogramming & accents...
Monday, December 21, 2009
We went last Thursday to see our high risk doctor for our 24.5 week appointment. Our little one is just growing so fast! Of course the first thing we look for on the ultrasound screen is her little beating heart. Once we see those 4 chambers beating hard....then we know we can relax a bit. =)
The measured all the major fluids and body parts once again! Her heart rate was 139 beats per minute. They also checked the blood flow in her heart and the umbilical cord.....and placenta. It took her forever to check this because our baby girl kept moving all around! She would try to get an accurate reading and as soon as she would start tracking the blood flow......our baby girl would kick really hard - which would make static on the ultrasound screen and mess up the test. It took like 20 tries before she finally got the accurate reading she needed! It was so hard for Jer and I to not laugh because it was soo cute every time our baby girl would punch and kick. She just did not want all the tests done I suppose! It gets harder and harder to get really good pics of our baby girl but we did get a cute one of her little foot and a profile pic. When we saw her little foot, Jer and I started discussing who's feet we think she will have. Later during the ultrasound, the tech said, "Well, I wasn't going to say anything - but her feet are definitely long and narrow......bigger than the typical baby at this age. Most babies feet look short and stubby....but her's are long!" We started laughing sooo hard....b/c that means she probably has Jer's feet! =) When we texted our family this funny story...my dad responded, "Well, she'll cross the finish line faster!" Seems like our baby girl is already destined to be a runner!
Overall, I'm feeling much better.....I still have to eat very often and rest lots - but that's to be expected I suppose! I love my cool morning walks.......and I can't wait til I have a sweet baby girl to take with me each morning! I think I've gained about 16lbs overall and my high risk doctor was so pleased with the baby's growth and my health that he doesn't want to see us for 6 weeks! So, we will just enjoy the holidays.....and all the good food......and keep on growing!
Here are the latest pics....
Monday, December 7, 2009
Here's my most recent baby bump picture! I'm right at 23 weeks here. =) I'm just now starting to wear my maternity shirts......even those most of them are still a little too big! I have plenty of my normal shirts that still fit me....so that's usually what I wear. The question I receive most these days is...."so how far along are you now?" and I say...."oh, 23 weeks....almost 6 months pregnant!" and they say..."really.....I mean you are hardly even showing".....and then I say, "yep! I'm definitely 23 weeks pregnant!"
I asked my doctor at my last appointment how she thought I was progressing and all. She said that I am just "perfect." She said that I will probably wake up one morning and my tummy will look like it grew over night! Well, that will sure be a fun morning to wake up and feel like I have a HUGE tummy! =) At this point, I've gained 13 lbs......so we shall see how much more I will gain in the next 17 weeks!
We will have our next appointment with our high risk doctor next Wednesday so hopefully I will have some more cute baby pictures to post. =)
Saturday, December 5, 2009
We had a wonderful Thanksgiving with the Lloyd's! It was such a fun time for us all to be together and celebrate the many things we are thankful for this year! I was definitely so very thankful for this little life inside of me.....and it was so great that my nausea had subsided a lot......so I was able to enjoy all the delicious food! =)
I've been feeling our little girl move around since week 17. I just love feeling her little legs kick, her little hands punch and her little body wiggle around. I usually feel her first thing in the morning when we wake up (I think that's her way of telling me she's ready for breakfast). I also usually feel her move a little after I eat......but other than that she's a pretty calm baby girl....so far! Now that I've been getting more energy and I'm able to do more during they day, I've been a little busy bee getting all the Christmas decorations up, finalizing nursery colors and fabrics and Christmas shopping. My baby girl is super still all day long....probably snoozing and growing. Then, when I crawl into bed at night she begins to move around and wiggle! Such a fun way to fall asleep each night.
Well, the second day we were at the Lloyd's she was moving lots! I had just finished eating my yogurt and animal crackers (one of my favorite snacks) and she began to kick her little legs! Ellen, my sister in law was sitting with me and I told her to put her hand on my tummy.......and she felt her!! So, I raced to find Jeremy - I told Jer that he had to come and try to feel her.......and sure enough he finally felt her! Then, Mamma Lloyd felt her.....and then Jordo! Pappa Chip was at the studio so he missed out....but I'm sure there will be more opportunities soon!
We went for our 22 week appointment a few days ago.....and it was a quick one! They just checked my blood pressure, weight and listened to her heartbeat! We still always get a little nervous before each appointment.....so we are always anxious to hear or see her little heart beating. There's definitely been times when we see her legs kicking on the ultrasound screen and Jer will ask, "Is her heart beating...is she ok?" Then, I usually laugh and say....."Babe...if her legs are kickin - her heart is beating!" Well, this time I heard a loud beating noise.....but wasn't sure if it was my heart beating or her's. I asked the doctor if she was ok and she said, "oh, she's just as happy as a lark in there." Such great news to hear!
We are beginning to slowly prepare her little room just for her! Her room is cleaned out and all ready for all her special little belongings! We set up her crib.......and her little hutch. But, we are still waiting for her dresser to be delivered. We've pretty much finalized the fabrics we are going to use for her bedding and all. I've been trying to do some research on the best car seats, strollers......and most importantly the most functional jogging stroller! Oh, I just can't wait to take my baby girl jogging with me!
Well, we will do our best to post a tummy pic this week......because it's definitely growing bigger each day! I'm starting to pull out my maternity shirts....I wore my first one last night to our youth Sunday School Christmas party! It was so fun to try on my red maternity shirt and look in the mirror to see that it is finally starting to fit! =) Just a reminder that our baby girl is growing...
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Well, we went for our big 20 week appointment today where they do a very detailed ultrasound! They checked all her major organs....brain, heart, kidneys, stomach, bladder and her skeletal system etc. Everything looks just perfect! She is actually measuring 21 weeks and 2 days! So she's measuring a little bigger!.....which is a good sign that her growth is progressing just fine with the baby Aspirin! The placenta has moved up and back....which is great too! It was covering my cervix for a while......which can often mean a c-section is required. Now, it has significantly moved! Her little heart rate was 141 beats per minute. Our technician kept commenting on how strong and healthy her little heart looked. She was wigglin' all around......but she mostly keeps her little legs curled up on my right side and her head is far down on the left.
She weighs 13 oz and is about 7 inches long. She is about the size of a large banana!
I've been definitely feeling lots better over the past week...gaining more energy and stamina! I've been brainstorming ideas about her little nursery. Jeremy's parents are giving us her crib and my parents are giving us all her nursery bedding/fabric. Her little crib is coming in this week! So, I've been busy cleaning out our extra bedroom and reorganizing all our closets. My neighbor is going to make her bedding...so I get to pick out all her bedding fabric. =) I've narrowed it down to my favorites....now I just have to finalize my decision! Jeremy and his mamma are going to paint the nursery......they have some very cute ideas to make it just perfect!
We are looking forward to Thanksgiving and spending time with the Lloyd family...and I'm super excited about being able to enjoy a good Thanksgiving meal......my nausea has started to go away just in time for the holiday food!
Above: Our little girl's profile...look at her cute little nose and little bitty lips =)
Friday, November 13, 2009
My little baby bump is growing!!! Even though most people say that I still don't even look pregnant...I can definitely tell that my tummy is much bigger! =) Here's my picture at 19 weeks...
Overall, I'm beginning to feel a little better every day. I have lengthened my morning walks to 1 hour......and I look forward to it each day! It's become such a sweet time for me to spend praying for my little girl! I've definitely been able to venture out a little more through out the day too! I just have to make sure that I always have my peanut butter crackers with me.....it is not a good situation if my tummy gets empty!! I'm still carrying around my little wal-mart bag....otherwise know as my "throw-up bag" just in case I get sick......but I haven't had to use it in a few weeks!! YAY! We will go to the doctor next week for my big 20 week ultrasound! We are praying that everything is continuing to grow and develop into a healthy pregnancy!
I can still wear a lot of my normal clothes......but a few of my friends have loaned me their maternity clothes - so I'm starting to wear them too! From what I've gathered.....I bet that I will really begin to look pregnant in the next few weeks! =) We shall see........
Oh, and she's been wigglin' around more and more! She usually moves most right after I eat or drink. Jer hasn't been able to feel her quite yet....but I bet it will be any day now. I think around 20 weeks he's going to start singing her a little lullaby to sleep each night with his guitar. He's been looking forward to it for a long while now. =)
Each time I feel her wigglin' around and moving........I thank the Lord for this precious life and healthy pregnancy........we have so very much to be thankful for!
I can't believe I'm 28!!! AH! I'm getting so old! =) I had such a perfect birthday this year. Pretty much all day I was teary as I was reminded of all the blessings I have to be thankful for this year. I had so many of my dear friends who live in various parts of the country calling to wish me a happy birthday.....which always makes my birthday extra special! As far as the pregnancy...I'm starting to feel a little better each day so that always makes a day so much better......especially when I get to feel our little girl wiggling around inside. =) We drove over to Panama City Beach on my birthday evening to spend time with my family and Jer's family for the weekend. My dad was participating in his first Ironman and my two sisters and their husbands drove down for the long weekend! It made for a very special birthday celebration! My sisters gave me cute little girl outfits and some fun little baby things.....along with some cute things for me too! My mamma gave me my first pair of maternity jeans.....very cute for maternity!! =) Mamma Lloyd gave me a sweet little girl outfit with a precious little matching white sweater! It sure gets me so excited!! Here are a few pics from the weekend...
Me, Brit and Linz on the porch of our beach condo.....
Jer pointing out my growing little baby bump...
All of us together right before Daddy headed to the gulf for his 2.4 mile swim...Linz made us all shirts to wear......sisters wore "Go Daddy Go"....mamma wore "Go Hubby Go" and husbands wore "Go Pappa Boyd Go"....the bottom of the shirts said "Champion Family" (because when I was a little girl and my daddy did really well in a race...I said, "Dad, we are the champion family!"....so it's stayed with us!!) the back of the shirts had the verse from Hebrews 12...."Let us run the race with perseverance.....let us fix our eyes on Jesus."
We were anxiously awaiting dad's finish.......2.4 mile swim, 112 mile bike ride and a 26.2 mile run makes for a LONG day!!! =)
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Well, we had our appointment yesterday and everything went just perfect!! I got a little nervous when we first went into the office because the ultrasound machine was not in our little room like it always has been. My doctor reassured me that everything is fine.......but they were just going to listen to the heartbeat today. I've been spoiled being able to see our sweet little girl every week.....or every other week on the ultrasound screen. Most people only see their baby a couple times the entire pregnancy!! Our sweet girl's heartbeat was 151.....but she must not like having her heart rate checked because she tried to move away from it! Then, her little heart rate would get higher! =) I will go back in about 2 weeks for my big 20 week detailed ultrasound.
I won't see my high risk doctor again until right before Christmas! Seems like forever away....but from what the doctors say it's all good signs that they are spreading our appointments out! They will just continue me on baby aspirin each day......unless they see some sort of growth restriction during an ultrasound exam.
Another bit of exciting news is that I can feel her moving!!!! Just little bitty tiny twitches in my tummy! When we went to the high risk doctor, my nurse asked me if I'd felt any movement....and I hadn't at that point. Over the next week or so, I tried really hard to be still and I tried to be very observant. I noticed little twitches in my tummy....kinda like when your eye twitches. I wasn't sure if that was really our baby girl until it continued for several days. I usually only feel her in the morning when I eat breakfast and may once or twice throughout the day. I just love it!! Jeremy can't wait for the day that he can put his hand on my tummy and feel her kickin'! He tries to feel her each day......but no luck yet! He's so funny...last night he asked me when she can start hearing. I haven't found the answer yet......
He wants to start playing her a lullaby with his guitar every night. =)
Well......such a fun birthday it has been today! I sure have so much to be thankful for......not only a celebration of my life today.....but of this precious miracle growing inside of me. Seems like every time I pray for this little baby......I just start crying....so overwhelmed with thanksgiving and love. I never imagined that I could love someone so much.......and I haven't even held her yet. =)
God is so good and I praise Him for his faithfulness to us. It brings me such peace each day just knowing that no matter what's ahead.....He holds me and this sweet baby girl in His hands so perfectly.
Monday, November 2, 2009
Well, after we found out that our baby was a girl....I just had to buy her a pink little outfit!
And who else would be up for a quick shopping trip to Target than.....my friend Christi!
Let me pause here to share the cutest little story......
So, my dear friend Christi and I have walked through our miscarriages together over the past year and a half. It's truly amazing how the Lord blesses us with friendships during our life that are truly a special gift from Him. We've been through a lot together....cried with eachother, prayed with eachother and shared in the most exciting of joys together!
Well, Christi was blessed with a healthy, beautiful baby girl in September...Charleigh. So, when I called Christi to share with her the news that we were having a little girl.....she started telling Charleigh...."you're gonna have a new bestie!"......then Christi said that Charleigh smiled so big her little gums were showing!! =) So precious!
Ok...so back to shopping for our little girl.....so, I browsed through Target quickly 'cause I was on my way to a Halloween costume party and found some cute little onesies and some precious socks to match!
Later that night, I placed the little socks on Jeremy's pillow so he would see them as he crawled into bed......
So, these little purchases will always be remembered as the first little gifts for our baby girl!
It's a............sweet, precious, beautiful little GIRL!!! As we drove to our appointment, we both just prayed the whole way that we would be able to see a growing healthy little baby! We truly did not care if it was a cute little boy or a sweet little girl......having either gets us both very excited!
We both had so much anticipation as we sat in the waiting room at our high risk doctor. I think I was so excited to see our baby and to find out if it was a boy or girl that it made my blood pressure go super high! The nurse had to take it twice because the first time it was 150/90! Of course the second time it was less........amazing what nerves and excitement can do to your body! [A few days later my nurse at my other OB office took my blood pressure and it was 110/60! =)]
So, they took us back to the ultrasound room....we always tell our tech that the first thing we want to know is that there's a strong heartbeat! As long as we know there's a heartbeat, we can rest easy. As soon as the screen came on, we saw the little heart just a beating and the baby moving all around! I think this was the most active that our little one has been during an ultrasound! Soon after the nurse checked the heart rate (which was 153)......she told us that we were having a little girl! Jeremy and I were so happy.......excited about our new little girl.....but mostly excited that we've finally made it far enough in a pregnancy to find out the sex of our baby!! Such a milestone for us! She continued on with the ultrasound.....which lasted for almost an hour! Our baby was the size of our hand open wide. It was a little over 5 inches long and weighed about 4 oz! She showed us the litte stomach and explained to us that it was dark because it was full of fluid. She showed us the kidneys and the bladder and explained to us that our little girl was already processing the fluid using her kidneys and bladder! She showed us the 2 parts of the brain and the 4 chambers of the heart. She studied the heart and the various chambers for a while looking for any abnormality at this point. She measured the spinal fluid and all the other important fluids......which all measured normal! Our high risk doctor was very positive about the growth of our little one! He said that he is very pleased with my health and the baby's health at this point in the pregnancy. At this point, he sees no reason for me to start Heparin injections (blood thinners) - but he just wants me to continue taking my baby Aspirin every day! It was difficult to get a full picture of our little girl because she was squirming around all over! Here are a couple of the best ones from this appointment....
Above: A full body shot of our little girl! You can see her head was down during this picture.
Below: Here is her right little leg and foot! Check out the little muscles on her leg! Makes me think we may have a little runner coming very soon!!! =)
Thursday, October 15, 2009
We are definitely looking forward to finding out if this baby is a precious little boy......or a sweet little girl!!! We are so thankful to have made it this far in our pregnancy! We will be sooooo very thankful for a girl or a boy....either one is perfectly fine with us!!
Here are a few of the things that excite us about each one...
Boy - dressing him in classy little church outfits....and every now and then dressing him like his daddy in holey jeans and a cool t-shirt =), puttin gel in his hair, taking him on running adventures, playing in the dirt, giving him long baths after a long day of gettin' dirty (cause little boys get really dirty), watching him play sports and cheering him on, going on picnics and nature hunts, playing in the mud on a rainy day....oh the list goes on!
Girl - dressing her in frilly little dresses with matching bows and cute little socks...curling her hair for church...painting her fingernails and toenails, playing dress up, playing "house" together with dolls, pulling out my jewelry box and letting her put on all the fun things, cooking dates together...cookies for daddy!....oh the list goes on!
So....we will just be so excited for either one.....the question is....
Will our baby be a "Little Jeremy"...
OR a "Little Whitney"...
This picture is kinda hard to see. But the little head is up on the right and the legs are crossed at the bottom left! =) The baby was moving all around and measured just a little ahead of scheduled! The heartbeat was beating strong! =) The baby is the size of a softball and now weighs 1.75 oz! Tiny little thing!
I'm definitely starting to feel significantly better.........still sleeping for about 11 hours each night (with a few bathroom breaks).....still having to eat every 1 1/2 - 2 hours to fight the nausea.....still having to rest LOTS during the day. But I am able to venture out for a couple hours each day!!
I've been able to start doing laundry....pick up the house...and do a few other chores around the house! I look forward to my morning walks every day and I'm super excited about it cooling off very soon!! My nausea seems to be getting a little better......and I'm learning what triggers my headaches! So far....if I keep the house VERY cool....drink lots....rest lots and stay inside on rainy days....I have been able to fight my headaches off! We shall see! My doctor gave me migraine medicine and reassured me that Tylenol will not hurt this little baby! So.....if the headaches do keep coming.....I will just take the meds and sleep it off! =)
So far.....lots of prayer support......great doctors....lots of rest and TLC.......has helped to grow this baby!! We are so blessed...
Jeremy's parents came to visit us and Pappa Chip took this pic of my growin' baby belly! We are planning on taking pics every 4 weeks now!! I feel huge here.....but I'm still wearing my normal clothes! I have a few maternity things in my closet.....so that I'll have something to wear the day that my normal clothes just don't fit anymore! We continue to pray that this little bump will grow each day! =)
We went to see our high risk doctor today for the third time and everthing looked very heathy!! The baby is measuring a little ahead of schedule....but that's all normal and just a good sign at this point! The heart rate was 157.....beating strong! =) The baby is the size of a peach now. We saw the baby moving all around. They examined the baby's brain, skeletal system, fluids and as much of the anatomy as possible! I love the picture of the little feet......and the hand! Once again...those little fingers look so long to me.....maybe they will be like his/her daddy!? The baby was so precious......he/she was laying down and then would skoot his/her little legs up real high and then fall down and do it all again! When I would lean to one side....the baby would move more....then go back to just crossing his/her little legs. The little arms stayed up by his/her head most of the time just moving all around!
I'm starting to feel a little better.....definitely not on the couch ALL day sick! =) I try to venture out each day for just a little bit......
We shared the news with all of our friends and church family this week! I'm definitely starting to get just a little "baby bump" now too! I feel like I'm HUGE.....but most people can't even tell I'm pregnant yet.
So many exciting things to come! We will hopefully find out the sex of our baby at our next high risk appointment which will be around 17 weeks!
Here's our growing baby!! The little arms and legs are long and thin now! You can see the little fingers and toes! Look at those long fingers......I think this baby is going to have longer slinder fingers like Jer! =) So maybe this baby will be a piano player like me.....or a guitar player like his/her daddy? =)
I was still spending most of my days resting.......I would venture out every now and then to see hang out with friends. I remember one day my friend Christi and I decided we were going to take her 2 week old little baby girl Charleigh for an outing! So, we loaded up and headed to TJmax and Target.......after about an hour and half...we were all dragging!! We went home.....ate a snack and all had to rest! So....little baby is still growing strong......and I'm still feeling very, very preggo!
Look at our precious baby!! The little head.....arms and legs! I love looking at the little knee joints and the little feet! The baby is the size of a large lime! Today, the baby didn't move a whole lot for us. He/She was kickin' his/her legs when we started the ultrasound.....but then stopped! I think he/she wanted to rest and wanted us to leave her/him alone! =) Everything looked healthy......strong little heartbeat!
Jeremy still had to do most things around the house......my friends kept telling me that around 10, 11, 12 weeks.....the "morning sickness" or "all day sickness" as I call it would start to ease up! HAHA! Poor Jeremy....he's seen me at my worst during these weeks! He had to bring me buckets to bed when I knew I wouldn't be able to make it to the bathroom......he would sit and try to help hold my hair....rub my back....anything to make me feel better. Finally....I just told him that I knew he loved me.....but he could just wait outside the bathroom and when I was done.....then he could help. =) So......he'd just be chowing down on a delicious dinner that he'd prepared for us and I would have to take off to the bathroom......we both seemed to be getting pretty used to this "growing a baby" buisness!! So.....I was still walking most days of the week....but resting for most of the day. The fatigue....and nausea put me on the couch for most all day! =) I did look forward to going to church each Sunday.....and Wednesday night. And we did venture out to the Pace football games. I would always try and make it to half time.....then we would head home for bed. As long as this baby is healthy.........I knew I could make it through anything! =)
Our little baby was waving to us this week!! We saw him/her kicking his/her little legs and moving his/her arms all around!! Then, he/she waved to us! =) Our baby is the size of a small plum this week! Well......this was the week that I began to get sick to my stomach! Umm....and whoever said that during the first trimester you may experience "morning sickness"....no, no, no.....mine lasted ALL day long! Even though it's miserable being tired and super nauseated....every day I woke up still feeling "pregnant" I did get excited because I knew that little baby was still growing! My body just might need a little extra time to adjust and get used to growin' a baby! =) At this point, I knew in my heart I would endure anything in order to have a healthy pregnancy and baby....even if that meant being sick all day every day! Every time we get to see the baby on the ultrasound.....kicking...waving or just resting.....it gives me an extra boost of energy to make it through another week!.....no matter how sick this baby would make me! =)
Look at the little "frog leg!" We saw the little legs just a kicking! So precious. =) The arms were moving just a little bit.....but our baby sure was kickin' those little legs! Our baby was now the size of a medium green olive! Still tiny......but has arms, legs, fingers, toes......just growing longer each week! I also began having really bad headaches....which when I described them to my doctor he said they were migraines!! So, I've tried to rest, drink lots and pray lots that they don't get worse! I began going for a walk most evenings of the week when it would cool off. Even if I had been sick all day long......I started getting a little better in the evenings.....so I would grab my water bottle and head out for a few laps around the neighborhood.
Here is the baby measuring 6 weeks and 6 days! We thought it looked like a little Teddy Graham cracker! =) Just little arm buds and little leg buds beginning to develop. Everything still looks like a healthy progressing pregnancy. I definitely had to stop running in the mornings....I just couldn't catch my breath! Amazing how something so tiny could already be slowing me down so much! This is definitely the point where the fatigue.....nausea and just plain feeling "sick" ALL day kicked in! Whew! I pretty much had to lay down all day long! One of my friends loaned me season 1 of Gilmore Girls.......and I began watching them....Season 2....Season 3....=) My days pretty much consisted of sleeping, eating (to try and take the nausea away) and.....sleeping and eating. Pretty much this precious little baby that was growing inside of me put my body into shock and I hit a wall! Jeremy began doing all the little "house" duties....cooking...cleaning....grocery shopping.....laundry! I am soooo blessed to have him as my husband. I remember he would come home from work and I would be in the same PJ's in the same position on the couch!! He would do anything he could just to me me feel more comfortable.....we were in this together!!
This was right at 6 weeks. Our little baby is the image at the vary bottom where you see two little "x" marks. They are measuring from crown to rump.....even though we still couldn't tell which end is the head and which is the bottom. =) The heartbeat looked strong....my uterus and everything surrounding the baby looked to be developing into a healthy pregnancy! Yay!!
This was the very first picture we got of our new little baby! Our baby was 5 weeks and 5 days....so just barely pregnant! We got to see the little heart beating.....163 beats per minute. I was still feeling pretty normal.....just a little more tired than usual. I was still running a few miles each morning. =)
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Well, we've come to a season of our lives where we are ready to begin a blog! Seems like our first 5 years of marriage have flown by so quickly...and now I have some time in my schedule to begin a blog....so here it goes! =)
God made it very clear that He wanted me to take a leave of absence this year so....that is why I now have what is called "free time." I don't think I ever had much of that during the 5 years I was teaching!!
God has been so good to us these past 5 years. We can look back and see His providential hand guiding us through life. He led us to Pensacola where I began teaching.....and have loved every minute of it.....He led Jeremy to Olive Baptist where we have had the privilege to lead the middle school and high school students. Oh....so many memories the past 5 years from our little one bedroom apartment....buying our new little home in Pace....training for marathons and triathlons...meeting new friends...taking various fun trips.....making family memories...experiencing new adventures together and the list goes on.
Well.....this past year has had some awesome and incredible moments....but has also been the most challenging year that Jer and I have had to walk through together. In June of 2008, we found out we were pregnant with our very first baby!! We were surprised and filled with excitement! I remember going to our first appointment and seeing the little baby on the screen with a strong little heartbeat! We began to plan how we would surprise our families with the news! Of course, they all cried tears of joy when they found out they were expecting their first grandchild! So....for the next 5 weeks....I learned all about the first trimester and all about the process of "growing a baby!" We went in for our 10 week appointment.....super excited to see the growth of our little one! I remember we had to wait for almost 2 hours in that waiting room! Well, eventually we got in and they did the ultrasound......which resulted in the most painful day of my life. I remember seeing my little baby on that screen - tiny arm buds, little legs and a little head bowed downward. But......shortly after seeing that little image...I remember my doctor putting her hand on me and telling me, "I don't have good news." My stomach immediately sank.....I could feel my heart in my tummy as tears began flowing down my cheeks. She left Jeremy and I alone to take in the news together. Our baby did not make it......which took us down a path we had never walked before. We cried together, prayed together, sat in quiet together, questioned why together.....but most importantly we experienced a peace amidst the pain that we had never quite experienced. We knew our Lord Jesus was the only one who could offer us peace to endure the pain.....faith to move forward and hope for another baby one day.
Well, just a couple months later......we found out we were pregnant once again!! Oh.....I remember jumping up and down with excitement! I knew this was it.....God had brought us through the miscarriage and was now going to bless us with a healthy pregnancy and baby! We quickly shared the news with our family and everyone was praying for this new life. The doctors wanted to see me soon.....so in we went! Well, from the beginning - the doctor did not see what she wanted to see. There was no distinguishable baby growing....there were not signs of a healthy progressing pregnancy. I remember us asking questions......not again??.....would we have to face loss again??? Well, Dec. 31, 2008.....we lost our 2nd baby. This began another journey that we had never experienced. We dealt more with anger.....hurt...confusion and deep heartache this time. Why would God allow this to happen twice? Would we ever have a healthy pregnancy and baby? Will the hurt and pain ever go away? I remember one afternoon....sitting in my 1st grade classroom where all the walls were beautifully decorated for Christmas. We had made all our little Christmas crafts together to celebrate, hung our long red and white construction paper Christmas chain and written stories about why Christmas is such a special time......yet in my heart nothing seemed so special this year. I was hurting......and I began to cry. I grabbed my things and went home where Jeremy met me. I told him that I knew God loved me.....I knew He was in control and I wanted to praise Him. It had always been so easy for me to praise Him.....but it seemed impossible now. I asked Jeremy to take me to the beach. I knew that the beach always reminded me of the greatness of my God. So, we ventured out to the beach.......I remember sitting for hours...watching the sunset, looking at the expanse of the water and sky, listening tot he waves, burying my toes in the sand and slowly watching the stars appear on that clear dark sky. As we sat there......the Lord revealed His glory to me.....all creation worshipped Him....all creation brought Him glory that night. The moon....the stars.....the waves....they all praised Him. He was the creator of everything.....He puts everything into orbit....He holds the world in His hands....He counts the grains of sand......and He brings peace. This experience served as a reminder to Jeremy and me that no matter how chaotic or out of control the events in our lives may seem.......HE is holding it together in His hands. He has a plan......a purpose for everything that happens in our lives. Nothing happens by accident. And oh, how I praise Him for being my sovereign, providential, loving Father.
Jeremy and I began to pray every day for peace, faith and hope as we continued down life's journey. The doctors began running countless tests on me......and through each day God began to open doors for me to share our experiences with others. It amazed me how even through our suffering and pain we were able to bring hope to others walking though difficult circumstances. We felt God prompting us to share our story with our high school students one Wednesday night......and so we obediently did just that praying that God would use our story to encourage them that our God is in control and gives us all we need to face life's most difficult challenges.
The day after we shared with the students, my doctor called and told me that they found a genetic blood clotting disorder....which they believed was the cause of my 2 miscarriages. So.....they diagnosed me with PAI-1 and MTHFR. I began taking a baby aspirin every day along with extra B6, B12 and Folic Acid. Jeremy and I had been praying that they would find an easy fix for our losses......and this prayer was now answered!
We spent our spring and summer busy...busy! I stayed busy teaching my little 1st graders....which God used each and every day to bring joy to me. Their precious smiles.....loving hugs.....innocent little faces each day were truly a blessing. It was during the last few months of the school year that the Lord made it very clear to me that He wanted me to take a leave of absence this year from teaching. So........that is what we decided would be best! Take a year to rest......and allow my body to completely heal from the losses.
Our summer was of course very busy!! I think I counted that we were only home 4 days in July!
We had camp, youth trips and our mission trip to Illinois. The summer could not have been more perfect. I was able to go on every high school trip.......build relationships with the students and serve the Lord on the mission trip along side Jeremy. Well, the day after we returned from our exhausting and physically grueling mission.......I found out I was pregnant again!!!!! YAY!!! God's timing was once again so perfect!! I was able to enjoy the entire summer with Jeremy.....our high school students.....family trips........and begin what would have been my "school year" growing a new little baby! So....that brings us to this new pregnancy.....